So I was thinking about my title.  It comes from a song by Keith Urban, called "I'm In".  (originally by Radney Foster, I believe, but don't quote me)  I connect with this song.  It is about taking a leap of faith and loving another person.  How the most important feelings and thoughts we have can scare us because our "hearts and souls are on the line".  And then to try and actually find a way to express what's in our heart and leave it out there to be accepted or rejected.  That's not easy.  It takes courage.  I'm trying to find that courage here.  To express my thoughts and feelings honestly and not worry about how they'll be received. 

My favorite line of the song, obviously, is "If I knew what I was doing, I'd be doing it right now."  That is my life.  From childhood, to adulthood, to motherhood.  That's me.  I have no clue what I am doing.  Ever.  From sun up to sun down, I am "winging it" every second of the day.  I have no master plan.  I wouldn't know how to come up with one.  I feel like a baby bird that was tossed out of the nest before it was ready.  So it learned to fly by itself, through trial and error.  A lot of error!  And then just when the bird thinks he's got the hang of it, he looks around at the other birds and realizes he's flying upside down. 

This is not to say that I don't have a good life.  I am SO blessed.  I have faith in God.   I have a loving husband.  Beautiful, healthy children.  A roof over my head.  Maybe, (probably not), but maybe, there is someone out there who looks at me and thinks I have this life thing all figured out.  I don't.  Maybe nobody ever does.  Now there's a thought to chew on.